Growing Up

Like all new things I'm sure I will blog non stop and then....nothing. Emma has been a great sleeper lately! She has always had long stretches, but she is sleeping consistently from 8:30 or 9:00pm to 7:00am! I love it, love it, love it! Nighttime is now peaceful and not something to dread. While I love this schedule, I think JD is disappointed she is already asleep when he gets home. I feel so bad for him. He goes and goes all day long. First work, and then school. He leaves when Emma is asleep and most nights comes home when she is already down for the night. Sometimes a whole day can pass without him seeing her awake! He tells me she changes every time he sees her and he just wants to hold her even if she is asleep. He is such a great husband and dad! I don't deserve a man as great as he is. He changes diapers, rocks her to sleep, they watch suns games together, he deals with both of our whining, does the dishes, serenades Emma with the guitar, and constantly tries to take the baby to give me a break. I don't think any other man would be as good to me or as good for me as he is. Anyone married to a Tate boy knows they are almost infuriatingly (is that even a word) patient and even tempered, but that is just what this little family needs!

On to something different...I am having trouble with something. When Emma first came home from the hospital we had her sleep in a miniature bed thing between JD and me. She graduated from that and we moved her to her bassinet (still in our room). Even though she was just two feet from the bed I still had a hard time adjusting because I could not hear her constant breathing at night and know she was okay. It was hard for me to sleep well with the new arrangements. I have now...finally...come to terms that Emma needs to sleep in her crib since she is sleeping soundly through the night. The problem is, her room is all the way across the house and I don't know how well I will deal with that! I'm sure she will be just fine, but I'm too attached to having my little baby so close! I feel like such a crazy obsessive mother! What's a girl to do?

Starting Off

Emma is finally asleep! She never naps, and on this momentous occasion I find myself creating a blog! Oh what my life has become...and on that note, I shall write.

Life has been flying by! I mean, ever since JD and I were married we haven't stopped and I can't help but feel I have not really, truly, enjoyed the moment. We were only married about seven months when I found out I was pregnant and I kept looking forward to the day I would get to see her cute face and hold her. I'll admit, I did not enjoy pregnancy. I was sick, and by the time I wasn't sick anymore I was HUGE and didn't really enjoy that too much. I couldn't sleep and I ached all over! Now that I am done complaining....I did enjoy feeling my baby move and bonding with her even before she was born. I started to notice my hand would always find its way to my belly, comforting my unborn baby and feeling so much love for someone I hadn't even met yet. Then, she was born. I still have a hard time believing she has been here four months, but I am honestly enjoying the moment now. The first three months were tough, and maybe they haven't gotten any easier, but appreciating what I have and enjoying my family, the thing that makes me happier than anything else, has brought a little perspective to my life. Now I see each moment for what it is.

Emma has started to interact more and has become aware of the world around her. She can roll on her sides from her back, and often does to position herself so she can watch tv. She loves the moving pictures and colors. She grabs on to her toys and stuffs them in her mouth and she grins SO BIG! She has really strated to laugh out loud and jibber jabber in her cute little baby language. She is no longer my new born. Something I am really sad about.